Speaking of, um, not judging others and not also becoming their defense attorney. How about ourself? How about me?

I constantly judge myself, but Apostle Paul was not judging himself. I need to find that scripture. He said he didn't judge himself. I constantly judge myself, but then I come up with idea. I'm like, Hey, wait a minute. It wasn't my fault. Da da da da, da da da. Then quickly I become a defense attorney for myself.

Then another part of me will start. Fighting with the defense attorney. It's like both are in me. I don't know if it's my brain, if it's my mind, if it's my conscious that plays a rule of judge and a defense attorney at the same time. It's like this inner struggle. I'm not putting myself down and I'm not saying, oh, this is horrible.

It, it is what it is. I am not just talking about infection in me that I found this great infection and I'm a horrible person. No, we are just talking here to perhaps to see the truth. Truth is only Jesus Christ. He said, I am the truth. Right? To see the truth that we may have more room. To receive the truth as a person and allow the truth, not my own version of truth, the person of truth, to be the judge, to be the defense attorney, to be the advocate, to be the covering, to be the intercessor, to be.

A life to be everything. Otherwise I get peace of truth. I start judging myself and I get another piece of truth at the same time, and I start to defend myself, and it depend on a day and it depend on the case. Sometime I leave the case with or the courtroom in our courtroom. Ended up judging myself and feeling such a shame sometime.

I just come up with all these excuses and at least I get out of the jail in a jail just for a while.

Wow. I don't need anybody to put me in jail or judge me or persecute me. I do a great job every day.

Again, nothing against ourself, but we're just talking here. To me, that realization of what's going on in us, it shows us how much we need Jesus. He's not just the head of Christianity, he's the creator

and how much we need the creator. You know, just say our cars, you go and someone first had to invent the car and then someone had to build a car, and then we go and we perhaps get loans, or we have our money, or we go buy a car. That's just the first step. The car is there, but the car needs constant, constant, constant maintenance.

We were created, we did not create it ourself. We were created, and the creation needs constant, constant, constant maintenance. Who's gonna maintain me, Jesus, or the creator?

Who's gonna take care of me? Us, Jesus. I mean, Jesus is his American name, but what we mean is the Creator who became one of us, put the flesh and blood of human being on himself and walked among us, allowed us to mock him. Judge him. Some followed him, but then later on denied him when the thing got tough, left him, then came back, felt sorry.

Then he comes and said, build my church on you guys. And then Apostle Paul comes and we think we have problem in our churches. 2000 years ago, he was pulling his hair the way I see him, imagining him. Just a new church. 2000 years ago, everything was fresh out of the oven, was pulling his hair and writing all those letters to all the churches.

And at the same time, he was so vulnerable and open and said The things I don't want to do, I do the things I wanted do, I don't do. But what I really love about the puzzle, Paul, is every time he talked about anything, he turned it around and connected to Jesus. The creator, the maintenance guy, the judge, the defense attorney, the person of truth, all that to say how much we need him, how much we needed the creator to create us, how much we need the creator to maintain us.

To watch over us. If I was the creator of myself, then I could judge myself or become a lawyer for myself. But I'm not my own creator. I'm a creation and I need maintenance. And it's him. It's him.

Then I could say, I love you, my Jesus. I love you. Not only I love you. Allow me to understand. As much as I love you, allow me to understand that I need you. Maybe from now on, you could say, I love you and I need you. I love you, and I need you. It's not that I need you, and I love you because I need you. I love you.

No. The love for you came first in our heart. We love you. And then we realize we need you. We need you. Jesus. We need you. America need you. Middle East need you. African needs you. China needs you. The black needs you. Just the skin. The white skin needs you and any other color in between. We need you. The educated.

Need you and the uneducated need you, the person that is busy doing good works. They need you, the people that they're busy doing so-called bad works. They need you. We could release the sound into the earth. We need God. We need you. We need you. We need you in our churches. We need you in our synagogues. We need you.

In our masks, we need you. In our temples, we are all, everybody. They're searching, but when they find you as you are, you can all say, we need you. We need you, Lord God. We need your creator. We have been judging or we have been becoming the defense attorney at the same time, we need you. Oh, we love you and oh we need you and oh we love you and oh we need you and oh we love you, and oh, we need you.

Oh, forever we could say that need you. Maybe that's why. To read things. They remain hope, faith, and love. Love is amazing. We knew it's gonna be in heaven, but why faith and why hope to me we will understand. Even in heaven, we need him even there. That's where I think hope comes in and faith comes in.

Especially hope. We need you. We will need you forever. And when we come to heaven, we will not say, oh, now I don't need you. We will need you forever. We ever needed you and we will ever need you. Oh, you feel so good to say. I need you. Our family, our marriage, our finances, our education system, our countries, our clan, our enemies, our friends and foes and everybody.

Even my dog, I can see her head. Sticking out the window. She needs you. She lost her eye. Also one of her eye, it wasn't funny when she lost it, but we need you. My brother got both his leg amputated in last six months. But you talk to him, man, you see God all over his face. There is no pity in him because he loves you and he knows now even more than ever.

How much he needs you. The wel he needs you. The poor needs you, the healthy needs, you, the sick needs you. The darkness needs you. The light even, or light, what we call light needs you. We need you, creator. That's why every knee will bow down and worship you and acknowledge we need you. Oh, it is so good to need you, Lord God.

So good to need you.

We are not self-sufficient. Even the so-called best of us, or even Mother Teresa of our time, which I love her, or Nelson Mandela or Gandhi or anybody that we look up to, we need you. We need your presidents and kings. They need you. Our darkest neighborhood needs you and the most amazing neighborhood. They need you.

Every tree needs you. Every leaves need you. Everything that was creator created needs you. I could go forever and say it, and you guys take it from there and let just say how much we need him. Meaning we are not self-sufficient. The creator loves us and he's gonna take care of us forever and ever and ever.

I love you Lord, and I need you.